Why I Post My Nudes Online

[CW: girl cock and NSFW images]

One of the most frequently asked questions I get about this site is “why do you post your nudes?” The snarky side of me kind of wants to give them a deadpan look and just say “You’re welcome”, however, there are actual reasons for why my posts tend to be sexually explicit and include nudes of myself engaging in the acts described (ie; the “Mx Nillin Fucks” series, the post on Frenulum Stimulation, etc.)

So, for those curious about why this sex blog is 18+ only and why I’m putting myself out there in various states of nakedness, here are some of the reasons:

 

This blog is literally self-love and self care for me.

I spent the vast majority of my formative years genuinely disgusted with myself physically and emotionally. I had discovered masturbation at a pretty young age. I had also been making out with and masturbating with another boy, all while crossdressing in secret on occasion. But deep seeded, internalized transphobia and queerphobia led to me stifling all that as best as I could.

I was the hardest on myself after crossdressing sessions when I would become very angry with myself. I’d call myself every name and the book and tell myself that I would never, ever, ever do that again. It was weird and wrong and if I wanted to be happy I had to be normal (as in not wearing “girls” clothes and kissing boys). Of course, looking back on it I see how popular culture, film, TV, news media, and a lot of mainstream pornography reaffirmed and perpetuated those ignorant beliefs. Hell, even more insidious were my school peers, teachers/educators, mentors, community leaders, and all the other adults around me who saw queer and trans people as sub-human.

You’d think that today would be a lot better in regards to all of this, but it’s not really. Anti-trans sentiment is still extremely high. Film, television, media, comedians, etc. still treat gender diverse people like jokes. Community leaders, religious leaders, elected officials/politicians, major organizations, and celebrities still actively advocate anti-trans and anti-queer policies, laws, and violence. And sometimes the comments section of most every news story, blog, and social media posts are often overflowing with transphobic and homophobic abuse from countless people with “opinions”.

This site is my reprieve from all of that.

On these pages I work to challenge those socially ingrained anti-trans, sexually shaming messages permeating around me by creating a space that is explicitly pro-trans, pro-queerness, pro-kink, pleasure, and sexuality. Embracing, exploring, speaking about, and sharing my body on this blog has greatly improved my mental, emotional, and physical health.

It’s reclamation, really. Reclamation of my body, my gender, my sexuality, my fantasies, my kinks and fetishes, and my desires.

 

Positive, Sexual Portrayals of Queer and Trans Bodies Matter.

Images of non-binary, genderqueer, and non-conforming people, especially those with a penis, engaging in sexual activity that doesn’t focus on degradation play are very hard to come by. The vast majority of any posts about sexuality and/or gender, whether NSFW or not, tend to almost exclusively utilize imagery that is heavily cisnormative or, when trans representation does exist, it almost always values images of cis-passing models with conventionally binary gender expressions.

Other sources can be objectifying, fetishizing, or outright degrading, such as the countless adult entertainment sites and blogs that market and tag all of their content with transphobic slurs.

Imagery of a chubby, hairy, non-binary, queer person with a girl cock exploring their sexuality in affirming ways? Yeah, no, that representation ain’t easy to find anywhere. And it won’t be easy to find anywhere for anybody until more start creating and sharing it. So, here I am… creating and sharing it.

Had I seen bodies like my own in a positive light at ANY point in my life prior to now, whether during my formative years or throughout my twenties, I feel that I would have spent far less time scared, alone, depressed, angry, and self-destructive while hiding in the closet. I would have had far more incentive and validation to celebrate myself and my body.

 

To Fuck with People’s Expectations.

Because, it genuinely makes me giddy to think that somebody has read one of my pieces and seen my pictures and it just completely and utterly shattered their entire binarist belief system about gender and sexuality.

Boom! Fuck your cisnormative expectations! Behold my girl cock and hairy lady balls. You’re welcome.

 

Also, just because I want to.

Yep. Simple as that. I genuinely just want to. Part of the enjoyment of this for me is engaging in some ethical exhibitionism through my blogging [with content warnings explicitly at the beginning of posts with sexually explicit material]. Honestly, I find the thought of friends, peers, and strangers alike looking at my nudes to be super exciting.

And hey, if the allure of nudes draw in curious, or horny, readers and they end up learning something about themselves or about other forms of sexuality, then boners! I mean, bonus!

 

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Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: March 2017

[CW: nude, NSFW pic at the very end of this post]

March was cold and dreary in Saskatchewan but I didn’t mind cause it motivated me to explore and experiment with a bunch of kink and fetish play activities I’ve been super curious about. Also, the first expansion pack for Battlefied 1 came out so I’ve been kicking ass at that on PS4. Plus, Beauty and the Beast, Power Rangers, Logan, and Life all came out, so, I mean, Fal and I went to the movies a LOT.

Anyway, video games and movies aside, here’s all the sexy shenanigans I got up to in March.

 

Blog Related Stuff

This month was honestly some of the most fun I’ve had blogging, almost entirely because of a new bi-weekly post series here called “Mx Nillin Fucks…” The general idea behind it is that once or twice a month I’m going to purchase an inanimate object to stick my girl cock in and use as an unconventional masturbation aid. At the end of each of these posts will be a poll with a few options for readers to vote on what I try to fuck next!

This month I masturbated with warm apple pie and then ya’ll voted for me to get it on with Jell-O. Now, according to the latest poll, it’s looking like April will begin with me sliding my girl cock into a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. While my posts about these acts may be laced with bitter sarcasm and sassiness, please know that I’m having a blast with this new feature.

Okay, so as for site content, here were this month’s posts:

 

#SexEdPornReviews, Food Sex, Cock Sucking Cravings, and Preparing for Sexual Assault Awareness Month

  • I haven’t been doing as many Sex Ed Porn Reviews this year due to life and general business, so, when I am able to say yes to those invites it is a very big treat. This past month I was invited to watch and tweet a few thoughts about Episode 234, featuring April Flores and Milcah Halili. Check out the coverage to read about what sexual health educators, sex bloggers, and other sex workers thought about all the spitting, fisting, spanking, and hardcore fucking Crash Pad’s newest episode brought.
  • Ever since starting the “Mx Nillin Fucks…” feature I’ve been pretty into playing around with food, masturbation, and eating cum. One of my favorite discoveries as of late have been a series of Tumblr blogs all about mixing semen (or ejaculate in general) with various foods and eating them as part of sex play or just regular consumption. Some of the tumblrs I’m really into right now that focus on this fetish are [CW: these are are all NSFW 18+ only links] Cum Gourmet and the classic All Natural Naughty Fun. I wish there were more cum eating, cum on food, and cum play blogs! Looks like I’ll just have to post more of that stuff myself lol
  • It has been about 6-months since I last sucked a cock. I still remember her holding my head as she face fucked me while Fal caressed her body. My jaw ached, but it felt SO good to be used like that and I genuinely crave her cock again. I want to feel her grow hard in my hands, taste the pre-cum off of her, feel her slide herself to the back of my throat, then roughly use my face before explode in my mouth. Too much? I don’t care! God I want her.
  • I was asked to film a short clip for New Hope, a non-profit organization serving domestic and sexual violence survivors throughout Massachusetts, in recognition of Sexual Assault Awareness Month to shed light on the unique forms of sexual violence that trans, non-binary, genderqueer, and gender non-conforming people face. Keep an eye out on the Mx Nillin Facebook page for news about when that vid goes live!

 

Slutty Pic of the Month

As with previews refaps, I like to end each of these posts with my favorite lewd and nude pic of the month. With all the new food fucking content here this month’s sexy pic comes from Mx Nillin Fucks… Jell-O! I dunno what it is about this picture I like so much, but here I am moments before dipping my tip into dat mold.

 

Speaking of food sex, the results of the last Mx Nillin Fucks poll are in and next week my girl cock will find its way into… a peanut butter and jelly sandwich!! And for those who were following the Mx Nillin Facebook page, I fully intend to follow through on my promise that if I orgasm and ejaculate into this sandwich I am going to eat it afterward.

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