Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: June 2017

[CW: Nudity, at the end of this post is a sexually explicit photo depicting oral sex.]

Lots of mixed feels this month as my newsfeeds were flooded with the pinkwashing, tone policing, respectability politics and rainbow splattered corporate banners that have become the heart and soul of Pride Month. It’s extra frustrating watching your community march alongside politicians only there for the good press, carrying disingenuous signs with hollow platitudes like “Love wins”, and grandstanding abusive businesses, all while white lesbian and gay folks actively silence and minimize those who are most vulnerable and marginalized. Wouldn’t want to ruin the party, right?

When Pride is all about making money and prioritizing the comfort of funders, sponsors, and allies… then who is it really for?

When your services and programming is more focused on making your allies, and the most privileged in your community, feel comfortable at the expense of marginalized people… then who are they really for?

When you are hosting your events in spaces that make your marginalized members feel unsafe, at times they cannot be there, and for costs that are unaffordable to them… then who are you really centering?

When you discount and disregard valid expressions of grief, pain, suffering, fear, and anger from marginalized people speaking out against transphobia, racism, harassment, police violence, and systemic oppression… then who are YOU really standing for?

But, I digress. Rather than sit and stew about all of this I instead chose to channel my frustrations into a number of posts, projects, and engaging more with my followers and other queer and trans folx around Saskatchewan. And despite some rough experiences with misgendering, deadnaming, harassment, and tone policing from peeps, this past month was arguably my most productive and successful in a long while.

 

Blog Related Stuff

Once again the new Mx Nillin Fucks post, which will center my efforts to masturbate with a pool noodle, was put off for another month. Instead, my focus turned to reflecting on this blog on a whole, asking myself about what I hoped to accomplish, why it was that I started writing about sexuality, and better focusing in on my pursuits. Ultimately, this is a blog for queer and trans folx written by a foul-mouthed, slutty, androbabe with a PROUD girl cock and I intend to keep it that way. Over the next few months I hope to branch out with some other projects and work too so keep an eye out here for updates! Anyway, now for the new content from this month:

 

A Re-Do on Trans Day of Remembrance, Sex Ed Porn Reviews, Nudes From a Handsome Man, and Blowjob Pics

  • Early in June my partner and I traveled to Regina to table Mx Nillin at the TransSask Support Services 2017 Gender Fair. As part of that display, I made a sexy new blog info sheet to use at future events.
  • A week later we went live on Facebook to read out the names of TDoR 2016 victims for those in Moose Jaw who were upset about them not being read at the memorial service last November. It was very important to us, and others, that their names were said aloud here. During our live post we talked at length about how trans people are erased and invalidated in death by news media, coroners, police, obituaries and their families. We also discussed how TDoR is first most and foremost a memorial service for trans and queer folk to grieve those lost and honor their memories. Say their names, y’all…
  • I was invited to watch and tweet about Crash Pad Series’ Episode 240, starring Andre Shakti and Dante DeMoan, and Episode 241, starring Surgeon and Maggie McMuffin. Tweeting about them marked my 1-Year Anniversary of participating in the #SexEdPornReviews feature for Crash Pad Series!
  • Okay this one is actually from the end of last month but I was sexting with a handsome man, who I’ve been acquaintance friends with for a while now, and he sent me dirty messages and lewd pics and vids and I’m kinda all about them. And I know that you’re reading this… my inbox is always open so… *suggestive wink*
  • My partner and I have long planned to take blowjob pics and those FINALLY happened! We may have made a short vid too, but that one’s for sharing with friends only. Anyway, check out my fave from the set below in this month’s slutty pic.

 

Mx Nillin’s Slutty Pic of the Month

This month’s pic guest stars my partner with their amazing blowjob skills! Here they are sucking my girl cock.

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Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: May 2017

[CW: nudity, pic of cum covered girl cock at the very end of this post]

Pretty quick monthly refap this time around as I’ve been in a huge funk that I’m just now really getting out of.

Feeling hopeful about June though. Got a few unique writing opportunities coming up, I’m getting back into doing#SexEdPonReviews for Crash Pad Series, a bit again, I’ll have a table for the blog at the Gender Fair in Regina on June 10th, and Wonder Woman comes out today, so, everything’s coming up Nillin!

 

Blog Related Stuff

Well, this was a month of literally nothing going according to plan. With May being Masturbation Month I had originally planned out a new Mx Nillin Fucks post, a piece where my partner interviews me about Mx Nillin Fucks, a post on why I feel that safe masturbation practices should be a crucial part of sex ed, and a post on observations made while eating my own cum for an entire month.

And then none of that happened… so… fuck. Anyway, here are the two posts I DID get around making, which just kinda came together:

  • I’m That Angry Queer, a piece on the power of owning your queer anger and rejecting tone policing bullshit, respectability politics for our oppressors, abusive trolls, and shitty performative allies.

 

A Surprisingly Sweet Threesome, Cum Eating Observations, and Social Recalibration.

  • In early May, Fal and I had our very close friend and lover come to visit us for the weekend. It was so fucking hot out (30+ degrees) so we mostly stayed indoors watching horror movies and playing tabletop games in various stages of partial nudity. Then we had, what I felt, was by far the most affectionate and passionate threesome than I’ve ever experienced before. It started with a naked snuggle pile of gentle kisses and caresses before getting hot and heavy. Time just kinda slowed down and the whole thing felt super… romantic, I guess? Maybe it was just me. Anyway, Fal and I have always felt that sex with this lover is constantly wonderful but I just felt like there was just something really deep and EXTRA intimate about it this time. It was incredible.
  • One of my, sadly, abandoned pieces for Masturbation Month was observations on eating my own cum for the entire month. Obviously I didn’t accomplish this, BUT I did still eat my cum an awful lot. 20 loads of it, to be exact! And some of the observations were pretty interesting. For starters, I realized that I masturbate to sex comics more than any other form of porn. The second thing I masturbate most to is pics, or fantasies, of my friends. Also, my cum is flavorless. Yep. It genuinely does not have any discernible taste the vast majority of the time. This is something that was confirmed by both my partner and our lover during the aforementioned threesome. Does it mean anything? I dunno. I don’t really care. I’m kinda just cool with my flavorless loads.
  • My social needs tend to change rather drastically, and radically, depending on where I am in life. This sometimes leads to what many may consider bridge burning, but I see more as re-calibrating. I recently trimmed back my Facebook friends list to just very close friends and some sex ed peers. Doing so was long overdue given the emotional and psychological overload that is 2017. My social media feed is considerably less conservative, and almost devoid of white, cis nonsense. Call that a bubble all you like, idgaf.

 

Other Cool Stuff

Decided to add a new section this time, basically just quickly highlighting a bunch of other stuff I liked, found interesting, and/or just wanted to share from the last month. So, here’s some of that stuff.

 

Slutty Pic(s) of the Month

So, once again I haven’t taken any new nudes because my mental health has been a huge pile of shit. Depression fucking sucks, y’all. But here’s an especially lewd old fave of mine!

 

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Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: April 2017

[CW: nudity, pic of girl cock at the very end of this post]

April showers bring spring colds, post nasal drip coughing fits, and chronic sinus congestion. Well, it didn’t actually rain much this month but my allergies have been going haywire nonetheless, and the last week solid was a complete write-off with me spending most of it in bed curled up in a ball.

Overall, it’s been kind of a miserable month health wise tbh. Between waking up every other night coughing due to coughing fits from incessant post nasal drip, and just generally feeling clogged up, I’m pretty grumpy, tired, and irritable at the best of times.

On the upside, I was still quite productive on the blog this month. There is also a lot coming up that I’m very excited for. Most notably, our friends with benefits from out of town are coming to visit us next weekend! My partner and I haven’t seen them in quite some time as life is busy and we’ve all be tight on travel funds. So, we’re really looking forward to spending time with them as we’ve missed them terribly. Of course we are also hoping that everybody is feeling good so that we can fuck them, because we’ve also missed that too [SO much]!

 

Blog Related Stuff

This month was pretty chill at the blog. I’ve had a lot of other work and responsibilities outside of Mx Nillin to focus on so a lot of the pieces written for April were more self-reflective in nature.

Okay, so as for site content, here were this month’s posts:

 

Sexual Assault Awareness Month, Butt Stuff, Cum Eating Goals, and My Adorable Girl Cock Bulge.

  • In the last monthly refap I mentioned that New Hope Inc. had asked me to film a short clip for Sexual Assault Awareness Month. That vid went live on their Facebook page just a couple of days ago, so, be sure to CLICK HERE and give it a watch!

 

  • I don’t fuck my ass nearly as much as I should. For somebody who has a lot of dildos, plugs, and lube to play with I often go weeks, sometimes even months, without busting any of that out for play times. I think a lot of it comes down to a mix of laziness and some lingering shame about the act that’s still insidiously lodged in my subconscious. But just last week I had a nice long bath with my Sleipnir (Small) from Bad Dragon and the Orca Large from Erotic Exotics and whew… I came HARD. With May being masturbation month I’m committing to spending a lot more quality time exploring my booty, prostate, along with my girl cock.

 

  • Speaking of masturbation month I have a few things planned. Not only will I be enjoying that “quality time “ I mentioned in my last post I also plan to eat my cum at LEAST once a day for the entirety of this month. Why? Because I love eating cum. Also, I want to experiment with shit. Like, eating different foods to change the taste of it. Then there are the claims out there that eating your own semen does wonders for your skin and can serve both as an anti-depressant and sleep aid, among other things. True? I dunno… let’s see how I feel after a month.

 

  • A few days ago I was wearing a some leggings and a skirt when I noticed that I had a really cute girl cock bulge going on. Naturally, I snapped a pic of it and for the remainder of the month my obsession has been wearing fem things that compliment and enhance my package. Booty shorts have been a big thing, as has NOT wearing panties. I think I want to write a post all about embracing the cock bulge for those, like me, who don’t tuck. I touched on it before in my Panty Shopping Tips for People With a Penis Who Don’t Tuck, but I feel like another post all together on bulge positivity is needed!

 

Slutty Pic(s) of the Month

As with previews refaps, I like to end each of these posts with my favorite lewd pic of the month. Unfortunately, I didn’t really take many nudes in April, so, here’s a quick pick of girl cock!

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