The Other 25 Facts About My Queer Sex Life

Red Hot Suz recently did a 50 Fun Sex Facts About Me post, which I thought was pretty cool so I decided to do one too; but I split mine in half. The first 25 facts were posted last week and for those who’ve been waiting for the rest, here is 26 through 50!

  1. I very, very rarely wear any underwear.
  2. I absolutely refuse to tuck my girl cock, especially for any social expectations. I embrace my bulge.
  3. I love wearing butt plugs during road trips.
  4. I really want to start writing hardcore queer and trans erotica on the blog.
  5. Since coming out as queer and trans I have been degraded and rejected by half of my immediate family and most of my extended family. I no longer have contact with them.
  6. Blowjob porn is my go-to for quick fapping.
  7. I am a furry. My fursona is a femme, queer deer.
  8. I kinda love waking up with morning wood.
  9. I’m primarily a dom in the bedroom, but I like to switch on occasion.
  10. My partner and I have had sex in a lot of exciting places. Some of my faves have been: an outdoor tennis court, a baseball dugout at night, and in the dark along the Saskatchewan river as a party boat drifted by.
  11. When I was a tween I was strangely turned on by Kaa from the Jungle Book.
  12. I also masturbated to Lola Bunny a lot.
  13. Okay, I still masturbate to Lola Bunny a lot.
  14. According to those who have tasted it, my cum is generally flavorless & nice to swallow.
  15. I did my first ethical cum tribute to a friend a couple months ago & fucking loved it.
  16. Since then I’ve fantasized about people doing cum/ejaculate tributes to me too. Cum on my nudes, please!
  17. After I move away from my current city, I plan to more seriously consider sex work.
  18. On numerous occasions I have fantasized about being abducted by extraterrestrials, and used as their fuck toy.
  19. I also frequently fantasize about sex with robots.
  20. I used to be obsessed with my cock size. Since coming out as queer and trans, my insecurity around my girl cock is now almost completely non-existent.
  21. My partner and I certainly do struggle with jealousy at times in our non-monogamy, but we feel compersion [experiencing pleasure from watching my partner receive pleasure] far more often.
  22. My partner and I are nude 95% of the time that we’re home. 
  23. When I was quite young I had a urethral stricture, a condition where the urethra narrows, and I had to have a non-surgical procedure done involving dilators. It was horrible. Moving on.
  24. My first exposure to porn on the internet was hardcore hentai.
  25. I’m really excited to eat ass for the first time soon.

But enough about me, what sex facts would you have on your list?

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25 Facts About My Queer Sex Life

Red Hot Suz recently did a 50 Fun Sex Facts About Me post, which I thought was pretty cool so I decided to do one too; except I’m going to split mine in half. So, here are the first 25 fun sex facts about Mx Nillin!

  1. I masturbate outdoors semi-frequently, especially in our backyard at night. It’s kinda my fave.
  2. I often dream of buying land and living as a full-time nudist in an RV home.
  3. My first sexual experiences were experimenting with my best friend during sleepovers and making out in his bedroom closet.
  4. When I was 17-years-old I used to sneak out of the house to suck the cocks of various internet hookups. In that one year I sucked, like, 30 cocks, and had my cock sucked a bunch, but I still considered myself a “virgin” because: heteronormativity.
  5. Because of that internalized homophobia and heteronormativity, I didn’t think that I had “lost my virginity” until I had PIV sex in a co-worker’s backyard when I was 21.
  6. My partner and I are non-monogamous. We sext and flirt with a lot of people online but we’ve only ever invited 3 people into our bed.
  7. I refer to my penis as my “girl cock” both in my writing and in person.
  8. I read more sex comics than I watch porn.
  9. My favorite sex comics often involve high fantasy scenarios or furry femboys.
  10. While I am domming my partner, they refer to me with the non-binary kink honorific “Mxtress” [pronounced mix-tress] rather than using any binary gendered titles.
  11. I LOVE edging [orgasm control].
  12. I once hooked up with a dude in his car who was high on poppers and I basically just watched him helicopter his flaccid dick around until I could safely excuse myself. That put me off of hookups for a couple years..
  13. One of my biggest fantasies is to be just covered in cum from multiple people jerking off onto me.
  14. I’m strangely turned on by satanic, witchcraft, and occult porn and erotic art.
  15. When I was really young and just discovering masturbation, I used to stop before orgasming because I had no idea what the sensation was [I had never been taught about orgasms] and it scared me.
  16. I LOVE eating semen, be it my own or someone else’s.
  17. Mutual masturbation is without a doubt one of my favorite sexual activities.
  18. I really, really want to attend a group masturbation party.
  19. While I’ve been fucked in the ass a lot, I’ve never been fucked by a penis. That’d be cool.
  20. I’m super not okay with having been circumcised without my consent as a baby. Like, I’m kinda pissed about it.
  21. When I was, like, 12 I cut a hole into a large sized stuffed leopard plushy and I fucking wrecked that thing… I think there was more cum in it than stuffing by the time I finally threw it out.
  22. I would suck cock every day if I could.
  23. I was kinda bummed by how awkward, loud, and clunky my first fleshlight was.
  24. I’ll fuck just about anybody, but I feel far more comfortable with queer and femme folks.
  25. I used to stick a lot of non-body safe household items into my butt, and that’s what inspired fucking weird things SAFELY for the Mx Nillin Fucks series.

Check back next week for 25 more sex facts about me! In the meantime, what would some of your sex facts be?

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The 30-year-old Queer

I feel like I’m in a weird, often conflicting, headspace about my gender and sexuality lately. On one hand, this is the first time that I have ever fully embraced myself as being queer as fuck and I am doing so during what is undoubtedly my sexual prime. So, yay!

On the other hand, I’m a chubby, hairy, 30-year-old, hypersexual, non-binary queer who is undoubtedly NOT in their physical health prime and who is still uncertain of how “sexy” looks or feels as an enby. So… yay?

Of course, I’m fortunate to have found a partner who not only accepts that I am queer and trans but who is queer and trans themselves AND whom I share a loving, non-monogamous relationship with. That’s something that some may never experience, or may only experience after a stream of abusive, invalidating connections in which they are pressured to continue hiding their authentic selves. This can last for decades, with people not coming out until they are in their 50s, 60s, 70s, or even older.

Yet I often find myself in spaces dominated by young queer and trans people in their early twenties and I’d be lying if I didn’t say that there is a part of me that envies them for having the opportunity to explore themselves while they are that young.

I feel like I’ve missed my youth. Almost entirely.

While growing up, I watched as peers around me stumbled awkwardly about with oftentimes violently cisnormative and heteronormative social practices. Anything “gay” was bad. Anything femme was “gay”.

Meanwhile, I worked overtime to suppress my feelings, to repress my queerness, to force myself to be the boy that I was expected to be. I spent more time talking down to myself, berating myself for not being like the “other guys” than I ever did growing into myself naturally. I isolated, I lied, I drank, I self-harmed, and pushed so many away in vicious, self-destructive cycles.

Overall, my memories of youth are mostly a haze. A mix of seemingly disconnected moments of feeling content, long blank spaces, and deep regrets.

So, here I am at 30 often experiencing stark emotional extremes. I am both learning to love and accept myself, and struggling to let go of the hatred I subjected myself to for so long.

I am both excited about the incredible sex that I’m having with my partner and our lovers, and lamenting lost time being sexual with my youthful body.

I am both embracing my sexual needs, desires, kinks, and fantasies… and still struggling to unpack deep seeded internalized homophobia, transphobia, queerphobia, and sexual shame.

I am both completely sure of my queerness, and completely incapable of adequately defining or understanding it in any way that makes sense.

But you know what? That’s valid.

I’m 30, flirty, and crying.

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