[Content Note: descriptions of being disowned, family rejection, racism, etc.]
My “father” (and I say that very fucking loosely) always promised me that no matter who I was, no matter who I loved, and no matter how I lived, he would ALWAYS love me…
But then when I came out as non-binary he HATED that I was visible in my community, and that I wasn’t transitioning the “right way”, in silence, from male to female.
He hated that I didn’t “pass” (or even tried to), that I didn’t pick a “girl’s name” for myself, that I didn’t shave twice a day, or wear make-up, or talk “softer”, or stay out of public places until I “fully transitioned” (got implants, had bottom surgery, facial feminization, etc.)
Then I got engaged to my partner Fal, and at the wedding (where he pretended to be happy to my face) he was overheard by my other guests making rude comments about the queer folks in attendance and referring to both Fal and their mother as “loud mouth natives” (Fal is Metis).
And instead of talking to me or supporting me like he promised he would, he spoke about me behind my back. He REFUSED to acknowledge my existence in front of the rest of the family, except for the moments when he did and said the cruelest things about me to them. He made NO effort to understand me, to care about my partners and friends, to respect the advocacy and communities I helped change. He made no effort to use my name or pronouns, stopped taking my calls, stopped saying happy birthday to me or reaching out on the holidays, stopped saying he loved me…
He did all of this shit despite the fact that he fucking crossdressed and lamented to me many times that he couldn’t disappear “as a transsexual” and transition away from his shitty family! He did all of that despite his claims of acceptance for all, regardless of their sexual orientation or gender identity; despite his encouragement for me to find community and embrace myself during my younger years.
Because when it came down to it, that love and acceptance of me was never real. It was conditional. He is truly, deeply ashamed of me and will never, ever acknowledge the harm he’s caused to me and those I love.
Though I think he was more jealous of me than anything else. I’m everything that he won’t allow himself to be.
So, fuck you, dad.
I’m non-binary, queer as fuck, polyamorous, and I’m hella in love with two fucking hotties, one of whom is Metis. And here is a picture of them sucking my fucking girl cock on an explicit as fuck, queer sex blog that the whole goddamn world can see.
Cause I’m living my BEST fucking life and you could too if you weren’t such a fucking dick.
Hope you have a shitty “Father’s Day”.
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