Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: January 2017

[CW: nudes and NSFW pics below]


No big intro necessary, there’s a lot to cover this time as I missed December’s Monthly Refap too, so, let’s just get to it!

Blog Related Stuff

A lot of new posts and changes have come to the blog since the last Monthly Refap. Here are all of the posts that went live in December 2016 and January 2017:

Additionally, there are 3 new permanent pages found on the main navigation bar. One will house all of the Monthly Refap posts, another will collect current and future Ethical Exhibitionism post, and finally, there is officially a Nudes [18+ Only] gallery of all of my favorite sexy and pet play pics.


Sex Ed Stuff

My 2nd semester interning at the Center for Sexual Pleasure and Health officially started this past January 14th, but I had technically been working all throughout the winter holidays learning their social media schedule and fixing up the website a bit. For this Spring, I’m going primarily be helping operate FB and Twitter post scheduling, doing the Week in Review posts for the CSPH blog, while also completing website maintenance as needed.

Honestly, it feels REALLY good having so many consistent responsibilities to help the organization out. I’m getting a solid 8 or more hours of intern work a week now and in a lot of ways I’m really enjoying the experience of this semester even more than last Fall!

That being said, my writing here on the blog has really taken a backseat because of the increased internship workload, so, I plan to make more time for my own writing in February.


Pet Play, Fantasy Cocks, and SO Much Boobs

  • I did my first #SexEdPornReviews of the year for Crash Pad Series and had a lot of feels about how important queer porn is in my life.
  • Just last week I got all dressed up in my cat ears, tail, collar, and some slutty lingerie then posed for my partner who took the cutest, and hottest, gallery of me. They walked me around by a leash before ordering me to suck a dildo, fuck myself with it, jerk off into a cat food dish, and then lick the dish clean. You can check out some of the pics in the Nudes gallery!
  • Speaking of a dildo to suck and fuck, I was recently gifted a fantasy cock, the Sleipnir [size small], from a good friend and I seriously cannot get enough of it. It feels incredible and is hands down one of the best toys I have ever used for anal penetration so far. Of course, now I’m hooked on fantasy cocks in general and I want more…
  • Just last week, while feeling both depressed and frisky, I made a joke post about nobody sending me dick pics anymore so I would just have to send my own to myself. But a bunch of my femme friends actually stepped and surprised me with boob pics! I love that sexy selfies are the “mood lifter” among my friends.
  • At this point I think it’s safe to say that I’ve seen sexy selfies from, and have been seen naked by, most all of my closest friends with the exception of just a couple… which is pretty fucking awesome. Ya’ll are the best.


Mx Nillin’s Slutty Pic of the Month:

Okay, so there’s two of them this time. You’re welcome.

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Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: November 2016

This was a month of some pretty intense ups and downs. It was simultaneously my most productive to date in terms of content generation, and also the most devastating as I saw 9-months of hard work go up in flames just last week. Now I’m in the process of rebuilding my site from the ground up, while also anticipating another hosting service move in January. Ugh.

Anyway, be sure to read through to the end, where you’ll find my favorite slutty picture of me this month… well, my favorite that doesn’t involve fully exposed girl cock, at least.


Blog Related Stuff

Things started off pretty great, I was getting up a post every 4-5 days and I felt like each of them was really solid! But then my blog was permanently suspended and I had to spend the vast majority of the later part of the month trying to salvage whatever I could. Long story short, I’m now self-hosting here at and I’m basically starting over. New posts will be going up every Monday and Thursday, with Monday updates being brand new content never published before and Thursday updates being re-posts from the original wordpress blog. Read the full story here.


Sex Ed Stuff

My Fall internship at the Center for Sexual Pleasure and Health (CSPH) is quickly coming to a close. While I did apply to continue for another semester into Spring 2017, I haven’t heard for sure whether or not I’ll be back. Should I not be accepted to continue in Spring of 2017, I hope to still volunteer and/or contribute to the CSPH in some form. But this does have me thinking, whether it is right now, or in a few more months, my internship time with the CSPH will end and when it does… what do I do next?

It’s a big question. One that I haven’t really thought about since beginning my internship a couple of months ago in September. I guess the real question is: where do I want to be with all of this and how do I plan on getting there?

Anyway, this month my writing and website intern work included doing the Week in Review for November 4th, as well as a Word of the Week post on “Netflix and Chill“. I wish I had done more but it was a tough month that ultimately required me to balance things the best I could.


Kinkly’s Top 100, Oh Joy Sex Toy, Cocksucking, and Awesome Threesomes

– The month kicked off with me learning that I had been ranked at #6 for New Blogs of the year, and #35 overall, in Kinkly’s Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes 2016 contest. While there has been a lot of completely valid criticism of the contest, it still felt nice to be recognized and included among so many inspiring writers.

– While this could technically have been included in the Sex Ed Stuff section above because it concerns a post I wrote for the CSPH blog… it’s just so fuckin’ cool I really wanted it to stand out on its own! I had the AWESOME opportunity to interview Erika Moen and Matthew Nolan, creators of Oh Joy Sex Toy, about the release of Volume 3 of their collected work and an upcoming coloring book. Eeeeee!

– Once again I was invited back to the #SexEdPornReviews panel to live tweet about a couple more queer porn shoots from Crash Pad Series. Episode 226 (featuring Max Madame and Barbary Rose) had outstanding spanking, chest hitting, sub/dom talk, and a surprising amount of cum play, while Episode 227 (featuring Scout and Lew Pine) proved to be a pretty revolutionary watch for me as it showcased incredibly hot sex between genderqueer folk with all of their clothes on.

– Group sex fucking rocks! About mid-month my partner and I invited our beautiful fem friend over and things just kinda led to the three of us heading to the bedroom. My partner and I sucked our guest’s girl cock, then the two of them then gave me an intense double blowjob, and my partner masturbated between our guest and I. Honestly, I forgot how much I love sucking cock. And girl cock is SO much better. Hers was just so thick and soft, and feeling her finish all over my mouth and face as my partner watched… hot damn! We enjoyed our time together so much that we invited her over again, just this past weekend, and the three of us played in a whole bunch of new ways. Highlight of the second threesome was when my partner and our friend held me down and gave me multi-orgasms, then a messy ejaculation, through frenulum stimulation with the Shibari Wand.


Nillin’s Slutty Selfie of the Month

Those who read my frenulum stimulation post earlier in the month [it will be re-posted here on Dec 1st] might recognize this pic from the piece. Many a sexy selfies were taken over the past few weeks but this one was my fave of the relatively safe-for-work ones.


Thank you for sticking with me through this really crappy period of losing the blog and starting over. Will see you next month with a ton of new, and returning, content to!

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Mx Nillin’s Monthly Refap: October 2016

I really enjoyed doing September’s Monthly Refap as it allowed me the opportunity to reflect on a lot of the big developments happening in my life right now. Between my internship, experiencing transphobic estrangement from family, going through a lot of career upheaval, heavy struggles with mental health, feeling lost in my transition, and finding myself receiving a number of exciting opportunities, it would be easy for me to become overwhelmed and to retreat or breakdown. Instead, taking stock of it all feels a lot better!

So, what have I been doing besides playing copious amounts of Battlefield 1 on PS4? Well…


Blog Related Stuff

NOTE: On November 24, 2016, my original blog was permanently suspended by WordPress because of their anti-porn and anti-sex work policies. Due to this, all of the links below are no longer functional. But, each of the below posts have been rescheduled for future Thursday updates!

Starting near the end of September, through early October, I was pickup up steam with posting about once every 3 or 4 days. However, midway through the month I got HELLA sick, which took a whole lot of the wind out of my sails for a solid week-and-a-half. Boo. But I was able to find the energy to get in one last post just before Halloween! Here are all of the posts that went up this month:


Sex Ed Stuff

This month I got site access privileges for the Center for Sexual Pleasure and Health (CSPH) so that I could schedule my own posts during the remainder of my Fall internship.  I put together a Week in Review post for October 14 as well as a Word of the Week post on Orgasmic Meditation.

Having access to the site has really empowered me in my intern role and has helped me feel a lot more useful overall. It has also allowed me to help other members of the CSPH staff with quick page updates or site additions when they’re too busy to do those little tasks.

I’m now hard at work helping to go through their LGBTQIA+ support page to update links and add new resources.

Aside from my internship work, a lot of my focus this past month has been on reading the work of other sex bloggers to learn from their unique approaches toward talking about sex and just get a sense of how to write effective interviews and product reviews.

While there are a lot of really outstanding sex toy review blogs out there, what I’m really digging are the more contemplative and introspective blogs. In particular I’m REALLY enjoying Formidable Femme and Echo Explores‘ writing as of late. A lot of their content just really speaks to me and inspires me to think way outside my own perspectives and experiences.

Girly Juice‘s blog also continues to be a huge favorite of mine because there are frequent updates and you get everything from personal experience pieces to advice posts, sex songs, and fun write ups on what sort of sex toys she imagines her favorite TV show character uses. Plus, I’ve learned a LOT about spanking and impact play, which is something I never really thought about extensively or explored much until seeing her posts.


More Queer Porn, the Tate Modern Museum of London, Cat Tails, and Cum Photography

– I participated in two more #SexEdPornReviews panels for the Crash Pad Series. Both were really hot in distinctly different ways. Episode 224 (featuring Vivi Marie, Sal Marquez, & Luka Peona) consisted of an awesome three-some chock full of facesitting, cocksucking, rimming, handjobs, and great communication, while Episode 225 (featuring Eden Alexander & Chelsea Poe) had a very different feel as it showcased stellar sub/dom talk, a great display of basic BDSM accessories, and what were quite possibly my favorite orgasms of the year.

– In “holy shit this is awesome” news, over the October 21-23 weekend my essay How Learning About Queer Porn Taught Me Self Love was among a handful of written pieces selected for the BEDFELLOWS: Porn as Pedagogy exhibit at the Tate Modern Museum in London, England. Holy shit, right!?

– For the first time ever, I had an orgasm and ejaculated from having my frenulum stimulated with a Shibari wand. I’ve been tryign to get there for a long time but it just wasn’t happening before. But this weekend my partner was playing with my girl cock all afternoon while we were hanging out on the couch, teasing me, even edging me. After about a half-an-hour she pulled out the Shibari, place it on the frenulum just below my cock head and, like, 3 minutes later I’m a cum covered, whimpering mess. It was fuckin’ awesome!

– Earlier in the month I ordered my first ever tail and ears on Kitten’s Playpen. The whole set is REALLY cute, comes with a grey tail, matching ears, a pink and grey collar, as well as a pink tail bow. Seriously can’t wait until it gets here to wear on days I want to feel pretty. Oh, and to take adorably slutty photos with.

– Coincidentally, I find myself feeling more and more drawn to fur and yiff art and communities. I’ve been seriously contemplating commissioning an artist to draw up a furry for me based upon myself. A cute, sexy, nerdy, furry version of Mx Nillin who can make appearances in some posts on the subject as I write about it! Some of my favorite art styles include the work of Hensa, vagab0nda, ozoozou, and pollo-chan. Unfortunately, most of them are not taking commissions any time soon and I’d really like a cute, sexy, Mx Nillin fur drawing within the relatively near future. If anyone has any recommendations of furry artists with similar styles who would not be opposed to sexy, bordering on 18+ commissions, please let me know!

– As mentioned last month, I always regretted deleting my old sex work blog after feeling shamed, intimidated, and pressured to do so in order to serve in a public leadership role and avoid “controversy”. Well, I restarted it up under a porn pseudonym and I’m feeling REALLY great about it! It’s not something I’ll be sharing publicly but it’s something I’ve been super excited about and I’d just like to encourage anyone out there thinking about posting their own anonymous nudes to do it. Don’t shame yourself or let other do it for you. You have every right to express your sexuality however you desire (within legal boundaries of course).

– I’ve always loved cum. I love the way it feels, the way it tastes, and most of all, the way it looks splattered all over just about everything. Lately I’ve started taking pictures of my cum after ejaculating and, as weird as it may sound, there have been some pretty beautiful and erotic resulting photos. Not really sure where I’m going with any of this, but I’ve been sharing some of them on my Twitter, if you’re interested.



Another booty shot, this one of candid, sleepy, Nillin. I mean, who wouldn’t want to climb up on that in the morning? I know I would!


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