I’ve always felt a little weird about my transition, like there wasn’t really much that I could do to address the dysphoria that I experience because its almost always socially based, and only very rarely based around my genitals and body. Despite the more physical gender feelings, I generally do not want any form of…
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I Wish I Were AFAB Transmasc
This one’s been on my mind for a long time now, and I can’t quite seem to shake it… I’m AMAB but I wish that I was, and generally feel like I am, AFAB transmasc. That may not make a lot of sense to most. I mean, I’m already AMAB so wouldn’t that be an…
Exploring New Identities
Like with every other period of personal change, I tend to enter into pretty extensive self-reflective mode for a while after emotional upheaval occurs and a huge part of that often includes thinking about my sexual, emotional, romantic, and relationship needs and wants. In the past that’s led to me contemplating major moves (be it…
Birthdays Are Hard and I’m Not Celebrating Mine Next Year
At least not in any formal or traditional way. Birthdays are just really fucking hard, y’all! Over the last few years, every single time July swings around I find myself starting to feel more and more anxious, often verging onto panic, and time has continuously shown it to be for good reason. In 2020, we…
How Dysphoria Feels to Me as a Nonbinary Queer
It’s weird feeling like something isn’t quite right about your body, yet having absolutely no idea of how to quantify or qualify that because there’s no comparison to go off of. Generally, it just feels real fucking bad. That’s what dysphoria is like for me. It’s both uncertain, and yet also all encompassing at the…