[CW: girl cock and NSFW images]
One of the most frequently asked questions I get about this site is “why do you post your nudes?” The snarky side of me kind of wants to give them a deadpan look and just say “You’re welcome”, however, there are actual reasons for why my posts tend to be sexually explicit and include nudes of myself engaging in the acts described (ie; the “Mx Nillin Fucks” series, the post on Frenulum Stimulation, etc.)
So, for those curious about why this sex blog is 18+ only and why I’m putting myself out there in various states of nakedness, here are some of the reasons:
This blog is literally self-love and self care for me.
I spent the vast majority of my formative years genuinely disgusted with myself physically and emotionally. I had discovered masturbation at a pretty young age. I had also been making out with and masturbating with another boy, all while crossdressing in secret on occasion. But deep seeded, internalized transphobia and queerphobia led to me stifling all that as best as I could.
I was the hardest on myself after crossdressing sessions when I would become very angry with myself. I’d call myself every name and the book and tell myself that I would never, ever, ever do that again. It was weird and wrong and if I wanted to be happy I had to be normal (as in not wearing “girls” clothes and kissing boys). Of course, looking back on it I see how popular culture, film, TV, news media, and a lot of mainstream pornography reaffirmed and perpetuated those ignorant beliefs. Hell, even more insidious were my school peers, teachers/educators, mentors, community leaders, and all the other adults around me who saw queer and trans people as sub-human.
You’d think that today would be a lot better in regards to all of this, but it’s not really. Anti-trans sentiment is still extremely high. Film, television, media, comedians, etc. still treat gender diverse people like jokes. Community leaders, religious leaders, elected officials/politicians, major organizations, and celebrities still actively advocate anti-trans and anti-queer policies, laws, and violence. And sometimes the comments section of most every news story, blog, and social media posts are often overflowing with transphobic and homophobic abuse from countless people with “opinions”.
This site is my reprieve from all of that.
On these pages I work to challenge those socially ingrained anti-trans, sexually shaming messages permeating around me by creating a space that is explicitly pro-trans, pro-queerness, pro-kink, pleasure, and sexuality. Embracing, exploring, speaking about, and sharing my body on this blog has greatly improved my mental, emotional, and physical health.
It’s reclamation, really. Reclamation of my body, my gender, my sexuality, my fantasies, my kinks and fetishes, and my desires.
Positive, Sexual Portrayals of Queer and Trans Bodies Matter.
Images of non-binary, genderqueer, and non-conforming people, especially those with a penis, engaging in sexual activity that doesn’t focus on degradation play are very hard to come by. The vast majority of any posts about sexuality and/or gender, whether NSFW or not, tend to almost exclusively utilize imagery that is heavily cisnormative or, when trans representation does exist, it almost always values images of cis-passing models with conventionally binary gender expressions.
Other sources can be objectifying, fetishizing, or outright degrading, such as the countless adult entertainment sites and blogs that market and tag all of their content with transphobic slurs.
Imagery of a chubby, hairy, non-binary, queer person with a girl cock exploring their sexuality in affirming ways? Yeah, no, that representation ain’t easy to find anywhere. And it won’t be easy to find anywhere for anybody until more start creating and sharing it. So, here I am… creating and sharing it.
Had I seen bodies like my own in a positive light at ANY point in my life prior to now, whether during my formative years or throughout my twenties, I feel that I would have spent far less time scared, alone, depressed, angry, and self-destructive while hiding in the closet. I would have had far more incentive and validation to celebrate myself and my body.
To Fuck with People’s Expectations.
Because, it genuinely makes me giddy to think that somebody has read one of my pieces and seen my pictures and it just completely and utterly shattered their entire binarist belief system about gender and sexuality.
Boom! Fuck your cisnormative expectations! Behold my girl cock and hairy lady balls. You’re welcome.
Also, just because I want to.
Yep. Simple as that. I genuinely just want to. Part of the enjoyment of this for me is engaging in some ethical exhibitionism through my blogging [with content warnings explicitly at the beginning of posts with sexually explicit material]. Honestly, I find the thought of friends, peers, and strangers alike looking at my nudes to be super exciting.
And hey, if the allure of nudes draw in curious, or horny, readers and they end up learning something about themselves or about other forms of sexuality, then boners! I mean, bonus!