#30DayOrgasmFun Part 2: Sad, but Satisfied

Alright, if you read part one from a few days ago then you already know what’s up, but if not then uggghhhhhh okay, fine, let’s go over it again. The #30DayOrgasmFun event is a sex positive project centering mental health and wellness self-care started by the wonderful Tabitha Rayne. The general idea is for folks to have as many orgasms as they can throughout April and to write about, or even just think about, the affects that they have on their overall mood.

Now I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety year round but one of the most challenging times always comes with the seasonal change from winter to spring. I dunno why, it just does, and this year was particularly shitty feeling. So I’m taking a proactive approach to my mental wellness and jumping into this full throttle!

It’s also important for me to mention though that I started taking depression pills again on the 5th. I hadn’t been taking them for the last couple of months because we couldn’t afford for me to buy them. I have no doubt that this will have an affect on my mental health as my body readjusts to the medication. I’m very curious to see how this affects my sex drive and how orgasms may or may not play a measurable role in my feelings for the next while!

Anyway, enough of all that! Let’s get to the cumming!

Context note: I am in a non-monogamous, polyamorous relationship with my best friends Kate and Fal. You’ll read a lot about them in these posts throughout the month.

 

April 5th – My Delicious Cum and a Sexy Sex Blogger Friend

Was masturbating to hot lewds that Quinn Rhodes sent me again and just finished having another fulfilling orgasm when I suddenly was hit with the urge to eat my own cum. I’m surprised I hadn’t done that yet this month because, as some of y’all know, I’m a BIG fan of cum eating.

I don’t really know what it was exactly about this load but it actually tasted really fucking good! Like, it was a little sweet, a great consistency that just felt amazing on my tongue, and the texture was just perfect overall. I was sad when it was all gone. Maybe it’s because I drank a cream soda earlier in the day? I dunno. I’m not really sure how fast that shit works in regards to things you consume affecting the taste of your semen.

Of course I had to snap a picture of me drizzling my cum into my open mouth and send it to Quinn, after asking her if she wanted to see it, as thanks for the masturbation inspiration!

Later that night, shortly before my partner got home from work with our friend Toto, I took out the wand and had another quick frengasm. That now puts me at 7 orgasms in just 5 days, and I gotta say that I’m feeling pretty damn good!

 

April 6th – Rainy Day Blues, Jerking in the Shower, and Games Night

Had a rough fucking morning and afternoon. Not only did I have an shitty sleep, tossing and turning a lot due to it being really warm in our apartment, but then I woke up with a brutal sinus headache and congestion from leaving our window open overnight in the hopes of it helping me cool down so that I could get some rest. It mostly did, but also fucked my allergies. Needless to say, I was pretty grumpy and not feeling the best. Then my mental health just sort of gradually slid more throughout the day because it was really rainy and dreary and cold and ugh… whatever.

Fal and I went over to Kate’s house to hang out and play board games with her for a few hours rather than sit around home feeling blah. Even though I wasn’t at all feeling sexy, Kate and Fal encouraged me to try masturbating to see if it improved my mood.

I went upstairs to have a self-care shower and gave jerking off a go. Between the warm water relaxing my muscles, making me feel calmer, and the sensation of the shower water on the head of my girl cock, I actually managed to have a pretty great orgasm!

So, yeah, I mean, jerking off in the shower was absolutely a positive and pleasurable thing that I can’t discount, and I’m sure it contributed to my overall improved mood, but I think that just going over to Kate’s to spend time, and play games, with her and Fal was probably the main mood booster.

The orgasm was a bonus.

 

April 7th – Nice Walks and Non-Ejaculatory Orgasms

Unlike the day before, April 7th was BEAUTIFUL outside. Taking full advantage of the nice weather and light, cool breeze, Fal and I went for a couple of walks during the day to stretch our legs and just enjoy the outdoors. The physical activity and fresh air felt great! And then we got even more exercise by fucking for, like, an hour!

I got a handjob for a while, which turned into a blowjob while Fal used the wand on themselves, and then that evolved into some anal sex. Booya!

As another first of the month, I ended up having a non-ejaculatory orgasm during the handjob/blowjob period. What’s that, you ask? Why it’s an orgasm without ejaculation, of course! But no, it’s not quite a “dry orgasm” as the sensations are quite different and a lot more intense imho.

So much of sex ed, film, TV, and porn tends to present ejaculation for people with a penis as not only the end point of sexual activity, but as being the universal sign of them having an orgasm too. That’s not always the case though as you can absolutely experience orgasmic pleasure without a cumshot, and without it meaning there’s some sort of health issue (as is often the focus around discussion of dry orgasms).

A non-ejaculatory orgasm for me typically comes from a combination of me flexing my PC muscles and the head of my girl cock suddenly feeling ULTRA sensitive from stimulation, which then results in full body pleasure spasms. It also typically causes me to “thrash” a lot haha. I sit-up a few times, kick my legs involuntarily, and squirm a bunch. And even though there isn’t a cumshot (though there’s often a lot of pre-cum drizzle), I always feel super fulfilled and sometimes even on the verge of happy tears from how stimulated I feel.

 

April 8th – Cleaning Shit Up and ‘bating Before Bed

Fal and I stayed up until just after 1:00 AM cleaning our tiny, but very messy, apartment and felt an enormous weight lift off our shoulders. Since both of us struggle with clinical depression and anxiety we tend to let messes pile up, because we’re exhausted or too sad to deal with them, until they become unmanageable. Of course, that shit leads to us feeling even MORE anxious and depressed as we’re constantly stepping over clothes all over the place, and generally feeling more boxed in.

Finally dealing with it all felt so great and freeing! Like we could finally breath in our place again.

After a full night’s rest we got up to hang out with my mom for the day, grabbing a bunch of food before going over to our friend Toto’s place to play board games. By the time we got home it was after 10:00 PM and we were exhausted.

I wasn’t really sure if I was feeling up to masturbate or anything but Fal softly encouraged me to and after thinking it over I decided to give it another go. Turned out to be a great idea! I came from a wand induced frengasm, looking at cute nudes Toto had shared of themself a few weeks ago, while Fal read some graphic novels in bed next to me.

It was really easy to fall asleep after that, which is a big deal as I’m somebody who often struggles with getting to bed. Thanks orgasm!

 

Some More Thoughts

So, again, another few days of orgasms have gone by and while they have undoubtedly helped me in particularly stressful or sad times, it’s still very clear to me that spending time with my partners and friends, writing on my blog, taking my medication again, and getting outdoors more have been the biggest influences on improving my mood.

At this juncture, I’d describe the benefits of orgasms as: a positive boost when you need, or want, that extra bit of uplifting. In shitty times it can help you get out of a real down moment, and on good days it’s just the cherry on top!