New Header, New Vibe, and Embracing My Furry Self!

Following a two month hiatus due to struggling with some pretty intense depression (as I seem to do every year around my birthday), as well as being very busy with finishing my manuscript for my upcoming book, How Do I Sexy? A Guide For Trans Queers, publishing in 2024 with Thornapple Press (much more on this soon!), I’m back with a new look for the blog and some info on what sort of content I have in mind for the remainder of this year.

First up is the obvious: there’s a new header for mxnillin.com! It was created by my wonder husband, Fenric, who you should totally follow on Instagram, and I’m absolutely enamoured with it. Let me tell you why!

Front and centre is quite possibly my favourite art depiction of myself that I’ve ever seen. I feel so cute and queer here, it’s immensely affirming on multiple levels for me. The purple side cut, a full beard, all of my piercings in the right spots, plus my adorable, chubby tummy and thick thighs on full display… it just looks so good and makes me feel really seen in such an authentic way to how I feel. I’ve long struggled with the dysphoria and dysmorphia I experience a gender nonconforming and non-binary leaning person. Mostly, I just feel queer, and this image of me feels like it genuinely represents me in line with how I see myself.

And just as exciting is the addition of my fursonas with me! To the left of me is my queer deer, Snowfall, who I’ve written about on the blog before, and to my right is a new original character of mine, my sad boi opossum, Grey (as in Earl Grey).

I’ve been wanting to incorporate my identity as a furry into the blog more predominantly for a long time. Those who’ve been reading over the years might know that in the past I’ve shared artwork of my fursonas, posted lists of furry porn comics I love, and a few years back I also interviewed and featured a handful of lewd furry artists. Yet I’ve still held back on writing about it too much out of anxiety about what my readers might think, and shame around how furries are generally treated quite negatively both off and online. But I’m not gonna hold back on it anymore. What I can say is that you can expect to see a lot more unashamed furry and pet play content around here, which I’m really excited to start leaning into.

Part of this will include nudes and lewds in a partial fursuit that I bought for myself this past June! Fen had purchased one of an opossum from a seller named MARKUS-M on The Dealers Den earlier in the year, and I absolutely fell in love with the design of it as soon as I saw him wearing it. I reached out to MARKUS-M myself and with Fen’s help of designing a new original character, I commissioned an opossum partial for myself as well! The suit is just so incredible and I honestly try to find any excuse I can to wear it as often as possible, even around the house.

Having sexy times in it and taking nudes is especially fun though, and I plan on doing that a lot as we enter the fall and winter here. I’ll likely also be taking fursuit sex pics with Fen too as they wear their opossum, or another one of their fursonas, as well. I hope you’ll continue reading and check back very soon for some truly exciting updates about my upcoming book release, How Do I Sexy? A Guide For Trans Queers!