I completely agree! And thank you so much! I’m glad that it was arousing too. It’s meant to be hot 😀

Thank you that helps a lot, I guess it’s the not knowing how my family would react or friends especially the wife. But I want to come out already and if getting “busted” is what is going to take to make that commitment then let I happen, I think, I know I will be extremely happy in the long run and I think I will feel for the first time that I am the really me, I will feel so liberated.
Thanks again

I totally get you on how arousing the thrill of being caught can be. The “what if” fantasies that spill out can definitely be a lot of fun! I’m glad that you’ve felt empowered enough to explore those aspects of yourself safely though I’m sad to hear those fears over what negatives you think may happen from coming out. If it helps any, all of what you’ve described is exactly how I felt before coming out. Luckily, when I did come out to my partner, they were completely supportive and our sex lives exploded into queer kinkiness and greatness! Unfortunately, that’s not what happens for everybody though, being outted can sometimes end relationships and jeopardize jobs, so, I completely understand your hesitancy disclosing that to anybody. I’m glad that you are here though, reading, commenting, and sharing your experiences! Please consider this a completely safe space for your thoughts, fantasies, and emotions.

Same! They’ve always been some of my faves.

Ugh, I hate that narrative too! It’s so frustrating because it’s shame packaged in self-love, which just makes it feel all the more insidious. Exploring yourself is radical and empower but NOT if you experience any sexual pleasure. Fuck that noise is right! I can be true to myself AND feel good. I’m glad that you’ve taken that approach to your work too!

Mollyx