Breeding & Feeding: My First Six Months With Kitten

When my kitten, Raven, officially asked me out this past February (okay it was more like the last couple of days of January or whatever) it kind of blew me away, because they did so in such a fantastically direct manner that it basically led to us completely skipping the whole “dating game” altogether; which was really fucking awesome for me because I hate it.

What does this text mean? Are they as into me as I’m into them? Am I messaging them too much? Too little? Will they think I’m attractive when I’m naked? What does that  text mean? Are they flirting? Why haven’t they texted me back yet? Is it cool to say this? Is it too soon to ask that? Do they want a longer term thing or something temporary? What are their expectations or hopes for living arrangements, kids, etc.?

All of that stresses me the fuck out, especially when in typical dating fashion much of it tends to get danced around over those initial weeks. I like when needs, wants, expectations, and desires are direct and clear as early as goddamn possible and that communication continues like that afterward. None of this whole beating around the bush, “are we dating or not?”, “what’s with the non-answers?”, nonsense.

It was fucking amazing that Raven got right to the fucking point! They came right out with telling me that they were asexual, queer, pan, and wanted a kink play partner with potential for a queerplatonic bond of some kind should things go well. Fucking awesome! On my end I made it clear that I was married to my anchor partner, Fal, that I was non-monogamous, polyamorous, extremely sexual, very out, also open to queerplatonic connections, and that I was both naked on the internet and very committed to my work as a transqueer erotica author and sexual wellness blogger.

Unsurprisingly, because of their forwardness I was so fucking into them right from those first few messages!

We talked a lot over the days leading up to our coffee meet, I was bubbling with excitement every time I saw a notification from them. I remember giving myself a pep talk just before walking into the coffee shop though, telling myself to be chill so that I wouldn’t be talking a mile a minute the whole time. Raven tells me they could totally tell I was dialing it back, but they thought it was cute that I was trying to play it so cool LOL

Less than a week after that we had our first “date” date at my house watching Doctor Who, making out, and fooling around. After playing with their breasts and fingering them for a while I laid next to them and they put their head on my shoulder to watch me masturbate, which was hot as fuck but ended a little awkwardly when I kind of, sort of, came so hard that I accidentally got some on their glasses and in their hair!

Fucking smooth, Nillin… great  job. LOL

Luckily, that wasn’t a deal breaker and just a few nights later we met up at a mansion sex party to play together again. That time though was a pretty big step up as I got to top them in front of friends and onlookers by whipping them with a judo belt, resulting in these impressive as fuck bruises:

And there have been soooo many more really fucking great bruises since then! In fact, there are a bunch of really great kink and BDSM experiences!

 

Wax, Ropes, Collars, and Leashes

Looking back we’ve already gotten to do a lot of pretty fucking fun and hot as fuck things together in a relatively short period of time! Like, on top of that mansions sex party mentioned before, Raven also helped me prepare and eat chocolate mousse made with my cum. We’ve had a lot of fun really exploring pet play together too and I’ve gotten to embrace my breeding & impregnation kink a lot more explicitly with them in extremely queer affirming ways every since they started taking PrEP so that we could more safely fluid bond.

That in particular has been really fucking hot. I always love fucking them hard, whispering dirty things into their ear, and listening as they beg me to impregnate them and fill them with Master’s cum. Sometimes there can be hard gender/body feels afterward, because boo dysphoria, but it’s something we’ve both been talking about as needed and still really enjoying ourselves.

Additionally, we’ve gotten to experiment with a lot of stuff neither one of us has experience before too! For example, a little while ago they dommed me for a change while I was tied to their bed with a blindfold on and during that I experienced sub-space for literally the first time in my life! It was amazing and really overwhelming, but in a good way! I may have cried a little.

Then at my polycule birthday last month we finally explored some wax play at the mansion as Fal, Verne, and my metamour watched. Most recently, I’ve been really getting into sucking kitten’s toes, which was never anything I thought much about but I fucking love it.

It’s so fucking hot hearing them moan and squirm while I worship their feet, licking them all over, sometimes getting so excited I can’t help but slide my hard girl cock in between them. I suspect this is something we’ll be getting into a lot more going forward! Or at least I hope it is cause holy fucking hot damn!

Learning to be a confident Dom to them though, to be their Master, has come with some challenge. I’ve really struggled with getting caught up in my own head, worrying so much about performing well enough and being a good Dom that I ended up floundering a lot during our play sessions in ways that took us both out of it.

They’ve been incredibly patient and supportive though and in recent months I’ve started finding my groove by literally just focusing on what I want in the moment! It’s made for some really ravenous and mutually fulfilling play that’s consistently getting them into kitten space again, so, booya!

 

Happy Anniversary, kitten!

This past Tuesday, August 11th, Raven and I celebrated our 6-monthiversary in style! We started the night off with some pretty incredible impact and pet play, which also included me getting to breed them real fucking good, then followed that up with one of the gayest things two queers can do together: we went to Rona.

We also happened the drive out to a park near the outskirts of town, once it was late and dark out, where Raven slowly and hungrily sucked my girl cock on a bench overlooking the Saskatchewan River. With them kneeling between my legs, hands rubbing my thighs and hips, I fervently masturbated then stood up, grabbed their face with my free hand, ordered them to open their mouth, and poured my cum directly down their throat.

We then laid our under the stars for a while before heading back to their apartment to order them a custom collar as a gift, drink some wine, and cuddle while watching Star Trek Discovery until falling asleep.

All in all I’d say it was a pretty damn good night and I’m a fucking lucky Master to have such a great pet and partner!

Kitten, I love you, I feel like we’ve already had so many amazing memories together  and I’m excited to see and experience all that’s still to come with you. I’m so  happy that you asked me out! xoxo