After seven years of marriage, and knowing how sexual and hella queer that Fal and I are as people, you’d think that he’d have fucked my ass an awful lot over the years. Truth is though, that up until our date night this past Monday, when Fal strapped on his harness and slowly penetrated me with his cock for literally the first time, I had never been fucked before.
I mean, sure, I’ve been fingered before, both by others and by myself. I’ve also had toys used on me before too.
In fact, I totally acknowledge that, logically, being fingered and having toys used on you is 100% a valid form of being fucked in the ass and that any notions of virginity surrounding those acts are ridiculous and antiquated social constructs. However, I still really did want that good ol’ “classical” experience of being face down on my bed, with somebody’s hands on my hips, as they carefully penetrated me from behind before plowing my tight asshole.
And now I fucking have!
Hearing Fal moan with pleasure as he eased himself inside of me, filling me up with each firm push, felt so fucking amazing and affirming. Knowing how much they’ve been wanting to do this too made me feel pretty great also to be honest. We’ve talked about him fucking me for years but it took him until now to get the strap-on and toy he wanted, and even now he’s still looking for his forever cock, and I’ve sadly struggled a lot with shame and insecurity around anal sex these past couple of years.
God I wish we had done it sooner. Seriously, he fucked me so good and I want it again!
Having this experience was definitely a big step in the right direction toward continuing to unpacking those shame feels too, which is great because I have incredibly hot partners who not only let me fuck and eat their asses, but want to fuck and eat mine too!
It’s about goddamn time that I get over the stigma and fucking let them!