[CW: this post contains sexually explicit images and descriptions, as well as discussion of consensual non-consent and forced feminization.]
I’ve always had a very tenuous relationship with most of my kinks. Sometimes I embrace them proudly, like I do with ethical exhibitionism and voyeurism, while other times I actually go back and forth on being excited about them and feeling guilty, like with having really rough sex that sometimes includes consensual hitting or choking.
And that kinda blows cause here I am encouraging folks reading the blog to get their kinky sex on, embrace what gets them hot, yet I’m not always doing that work for myself and it shows most with the following four:
Pet Play
Given how much I blog about furries and shit you’d think I’d totally be enthusiastic about pet play, but talking about it is WAY different than acting it out. I do own a genuinely adorable kitten set of a tail, ears, frilly collar and a leash but I’ve only really used them once in a sexual situation and any time I think about playing with them again I feel… I dunno… embarrassed?
Guess that shouldn’t be surprising given the near universal stigma that continues to follow furries, and which I certainly still feel every time I see a new meme mocking them, but I think a lot of it is an insecurities thing too. I’m a fat, hairy enby and most of the sexy kitten pet play out there centers slim, femme, smooth bodies so I often feel gross about myself.
Which fucking sucks, cause I’m a good fucking kitty, and I wish I could just make the shame feels about it go away.
Cum Fetish
I love cum. Like, fucking LOVE it. I love doing cum tributes. I love ejaculating on my partners and myself. I love ejaculating IN my partners, or having my own mouth or ass filled with cum. I love eating cum, either on it’s own or with food, or even off of or out of my partners. You know what, that last one especially. Seriously, there’s nothing fucking hotter than filling my partner full of cum and then eating it out of their pussy.
Hell, I’m so into cum I just love SEEING it. Like, pulling out of one of my partners and shooting stream after stream of semen all over their body (and maybe even their clothes), then just taking a moment to admire the mess? Oh my fucking god, fuck yes.
Sadly, there’s also a lot that I’ll likely never experiences experience but still fantasize about nonetheless. Stuff like drinking a cum cocktail; as in throwing back a cup full of the ejaculate of multiple people. Or getting a cum bath; as in just fucking covered by load after load all over my face and body… HUNDREDS of loads!
Yet as much as I talk about it, and write about, I often still find myself holding back on cum play, especially when asking my partners to participate in it cause I know they don’t always like to get covered in the copious amounts of semen I tend to ejaculate.
Impregnation Kink
Okay, so, I used to be really fucking confused about why I was so turned on by this but now that I’m thinking about it in context with the whole cum fetish thing, this actually makes a lot of sense.
Generally, an impregnation kink or fetish involves an individual, or individuals, who experience sexual pleasure and/or excitement from the ideal of impregnating, or being impregnated by, somebody else.
It’s kinda hard to describe exactly how it works, but basically I’m frequently aroused about the idea of getting somebody pregnant. Mostly it’s one of my partners, but not always because fantasies are fucking weird sometimes and maybe they occasionally involve Lola Bunny… or me as human cattle at a queer breeding farm getting fucked every day by my masters.
Here’s the thing though, I am NOT actively actually trying to get either of my partners pregnant, and I’m not even really hoping that it happens either. That’s not what this is. It’s the thought of it, the thrill of it, the chance of it, that’s what’s exciting. Having unprotected sex with my partner, feeling myself ejaculate inside them, and imagining that it may impregnate either one of them, is fucking hot to me!
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