I’ve been thinking an awful lot about my needs and wants when it comes to relationships lately. In early 2021, shortly after the big parts of the pandemic lockdown were starting to lift, I was in a pretty chaotic state of being. Following months of emotional turmoil, gaslighting, arguments, manipulation, intimidation, and yelling, all culminating…
Wow, it has been a while since I’ve done one of these. Two years, in fact! When I used to do them I think I took them a little too literally. When I didn’t end up experiencing as much of my fucket lists as I’d hoped I’d feel pretty bummed out about it, like I…
It’s a good thing that Fen insists on taking pictures of me all of the time, because if they didn’t then I’d probably never post stuff like this of myself. I have a lot of very hard feels about my weight, especially my stomach. It makes me feel incredible insecure and unattractive, but that’s exactly …
I’ve always felt a little weird about my transition, like there wasn’t really much that I could do to address the dysphoria that I experience because its almost always socially based, and only very rarely based around my genitals and body. Despite the more physical gender feelings, I generally do not want any form of…
CW: discussion of abuse, SA, severe mental health struggles, depression, negative self-talk, etc. Okay, I think it’s time to talk about my insecurities and anxieties more because I feel like they’re at an all-time high. Or low? I dunno, whichever. Basically, I feel like shit about myself and just, like, not confident at all. I…