Hey friends! I’m sure it’s safe to say that like me, a lot of y’all probably aren’t feeling your absolute best right now. I’m right there with you and hope you’re doing the best you can during these time.
And for those of you like me who also struggle with depression and anxiety as is… fucking hell, right??
While I wouldn’t say that I’ve slipped into severe depression just yet I’m definitely feeling this, like, creeping, gradual, consistent gloominess and morose as my partners and I all struggle with the effects of “social distancing” and the impending worry that we may have to keep space from one another for some period of time.
It doesn’t help that my satellite partner Rowan is undergoing testing with a fever and cough; and Kate’s also having to self-isolate pretty heavy while monitoring some symptoms for the next 14-days too.
That shit is scary, worsened of course by the province of Saskatchewan declaring a state of emergency with my home city shutting down to the extent that it is a literal ghost town out there and my social media overflowing with depressing as fuck, pessimistic fear mongering.
It’s all really kind of fucking me up.
Lucky for me, I have some pretty amazing partners who have really shone through during this time. Between the daily support and affection from Fal and the soul soothing weekly cuddle seasons with Verne, as well as some pretty mind blowing sex, I’m doing a hell of a lot better than I would be otherwise.
Spending time with Fal and Verne is genuinely what’s getting me through all of this right now. Their company, affection, communication, and the OUTSTANDING sexy times, are what gives me life right now in this pandemic.
And look I can hear you saying it now: that’s NOT social isolation, Nillin! And sure, maybe your right, maybe it’s not as extensive as others are doing, but it’s where I’m at right now. It’s what I need for my mental health and wellness and it’s in accordance with current provincial containment protocols.
None of my partners are exhibiting any symptoms, we’re all monitoring ourselves and each other, thoroughly washing our hands, avoiding crowded spaces, and not leaving our apartments except to see one another or get essentials like food.
Additionally, all of us are low risk for contracting it given that most of us are not working at the moment or are employed in office spaces where most of the staff is currently working from home. Plus nobody is using public transit or going to any social events, movies, restaurants, bars, gyms, or clubs (they’re all closed by government order right now anyway).
I know that it is entirely likely the time will come when I won’t be able to see Verne for a while, and we’ll obviously adjust ourselves and our behaviors further as needed.
But until then, I’m getting all the hugs, kisses, cuddles, and fucking in that I can with my partners and we’ll take tomorrow as it comes.
Just want to take a moment here to celebrate a new blogging milestone: 1 Million Views!!! Thank you so much for reading and supporting the site over all of these years!