I’m sure that my regular readers quickly noticed a heightened focus on furry content about half-way through this past year. While I’ve posted little reviews of furry porn comics and games in the past, it’s always been rather sporadic because I was anxious about alienating those who frequented the blog for my regular queer nudes and lewds. That and I was still keeping me being a furry at a distance, even from myself. They tend to get a lot of hate online, and despite writing about the fandom since the very beginning of this blog I’ve been hesitant to fully embrace the community and my draw to it.
Then I went to my first furry convention, Calfurry, and bought Malbec. It changed everything.
I definitely never could have anticipated how quickly I’d fall in love with Malbec, and how entrenched he’d become in my life as a primary fursona of mine. But he arrived at a time when I really, really needed him. For nearly a year I’d been struggling immensely with dysphoria and depression over my transition, as well as general dysmorphia around my ageing body. Despite knowing that I didn’t need to do anything to prove myself as an authentic trans person, I was still making decisions based on this misguided notion of who I was “supposed” to be, rather than who I wanted to be. Or, more accurately, who I am.
I’ve spent so much of my life trying to be the queer that everyone else, my father, my exes, my community, has wanted me to be. But I’m finally starting to let me be the queer that I want to be! And Malbec has been a huge part of that.
Where Snowfall has served as a conduit for me to explore queer femininity and transition as a nonbinary trans femme, showing one possible version of myself in which I achieve what I desire through HRT, Malbec has finally given me an affirming lens through which I’ve been able to really consider what queer masculinity means to me.
The best part of going to Calfurry and connecting with more furries is that I’ve met a lot of really cool new friends from all around Canada, and the world. Friends like Marye and Otter, both of whom are artists I’ve also had the pleasure of commissioning a lot of hot images from for the blog. Being able to connect with all of these wonderful, creative people who are so passionate about making trans and queer affirming furry content has been such a blessing. It’s helped me finally connect with my fursonas, and explore various facets of queer masculinity and to process my transition wants in profound ways.
My growing friendships with various members of the furry fandom, including all the lovely folks I’ve met in Lethbridge, and the online connections I’ve developed with folks from Alberta, BC, Ontario, the UK, and South America, has finally brought a really sense of fulfilling community into my life. And the art that folks like Marye, Otter, Bucketpup, Wolfbugg, and Xanny have created for me has been so empowering and beneficial that I’ve felt the most comfortable and sure in my body and self in the last several months than in the last several years.
They’ve all helped me feel both seen, and see myself, in each piece of work they’ve done for me. I feel more confident, sexier, and invigorated! I am resolved in my passion for the blog, for writing my books, and for developing more community space for 2SLGTQ+ people, online and in my local community! And honestly, it’s all thanks to really embracing myself as a furry and meeting all these amazing people.
To each and every one of you: thank you! Your friendship, support, and encouragement has been revolutionary for me. Thank you for helping me reconnect with myself. Thank you for helping me bolster my blog with your art. Thank you for the thoughtful conversations, shared resources, safe channels for neurodivergent socialization, and so much more.
I can’t wait to see most of you at next year’s cons!
In other news, I’m excited to announce that my second book, Carry On: Unpacking Your Internalized Transphobic and Queerphobic Baggage, is available for preorder! It comes out on March 20th, 2026. You can also preorder my third book, Nonmonogamy and Queer Inclusivity, which releases November 6th, 2026.
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