I really liked doing the last Throwback Thirstday, but I wasn’t sure if I was going to do another one for a while… until I re-discovered these pics of my banging booty and great girl dick, that is! What’s Throwback Thirstday all about though? Unbridled horniness! More specifically, it’s essentially an excuse to finally post all of the nudes and lewds I took early on in my coming out from 5+ years ago that I previously had on a NSFW Tumblr account before they ruined themselves by banning porn.
These ones have actually always been some of my faves and still hold up as being hella fucking gender affirming for me. At the time I had never had photos like this taken of me. I had never seen myself, or my bodies from these angles and perspectives. I felt incredibly vulnerable but also sooooo good to finally be embracing softer sides of myself and the super simple look of a black push-up bra and black satin tank top went a surprisingly long way in making me feel pretty damn sexy.
Sadly, I’ve lost some of those good, sexy gender feels over the years since these were taken. There was a period of time when, while living in Moos Jaw, my spouse, Fal, and I were really struggling with some brutal street harassment from the community, as well as unaccepting family, and I ended up going back into the closet to a degree.
Looking back on that, I don’t think I’ve ever fully recovered from that. I still have trouble in the bedroom even now with wearing affirming things and feeling attractive in affirming ways.
But these photos make me smile so much! And now they serve a new purpose for me personally: as inspiration to spend some more time finding what feels sexy to me again and finding queer ways to frame that rocking ass and girl dick o’ mine.
