Welcome to Day 11 of February Photofest 2019 on MxNillin.com
The first two weeks of posts this month will be lewds and nudes from a couple of years back, taken shortly after I first came out. These have NEVER been uploaded to the blog before and thus haven’t been seen by anyone other than my partners and close friends, until now.
It’s always interesting looking back on these lewds now, especially in comparison with some of the newer ones I’ve taken. While I still think this pic is REALLY fucking hot I definitely feel like I look a little more rigid and unsure of myself than in, say, those shower pics from last November or the couch masturbating ones from October. I think it’s because I’ve never really felt the most confident with posing for somebody else taking the pictures, you know?
That’s why so much of the stuff I do end up posting is very obviously selfies, cause at least then I feel in control of the shot. I’m more confident uploading it as I’m showing and seeing the sexy that I want to in myself, and framing my body in ways that alters some of the stuff about myself physically that I don’t like. With somebody else taking the picture I just feel so out of control and afraid of how I’m gonna look. If I’m being completely honest I generally feel significantly less attractive in real life to those looking at me head on than I do in the photos that I take for myself.
That’s actually going to be a pretty concurrent theme for upcoming content going in to the 2nd half of this month as I’ll be sharing a lot of photos taken of me by my friend Toto! I really want to challenge myself to both acknowledge and appreciate the sexy that OTHERS see in me.
Anyway, now I’m rambling. When it comes down to it this is just a great shot of me with a handful of tits and a handful of girl cock!
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